today was amazing 
i loved it. alhamdullilah. it was indeed a happy day, it felt so normal, so, so true and kind of satisfying, like i had fed this hunger i hadnt known existed til it was satiated.
today, i went to the university and i sat in a classroom in the chair next to my beloved, and i stayed and watched his presentation about some really awesome high tech futuristic technologies of the days to come. hehee, they went first. but before that, i was running late. i didnt want to get there late, but there was traffic on the way and i left a bit off schedule. he was supposed to ask his prof if i could come watch the presentations because it’s a small class and i thought he did, but it turned out that he didnt. i got there with 2 minutes to spare but i didnt really want to go in. he was waiting inside the classroom and i looked around for the room. couldnt find it and went the other way, and saw his face in the window. he motioned for me to come in, but i didnt want to walk in alone. he had asked the prof and the prof said it was ok, but i still wanted him to come out so we could go in together. we played this little hand motion game for a couple more seconds. then, i mustered up some courage and came in and sat next to him. hah. and the funny part is, i sat in the chair the other way. like, those swiveling chairs, i swiveled it the wrong way and it didnt come out so i climbed into the chair. wonderful first impression, neh?
ok, so, they went up there and presented! he did awesome, alhamdullilah, his teammates were alrite. and so, since it was a business class, i thought it would be super-boring and filled with numbers, etc etc, right? wrong. haha, but yes, see, thats where their prof came in with his criticism. he was all just like, see, he makes us feel like crap and stuff like that and im trying to explain to him why its positive and its constructive, etc etc. i didnt want him to feel sad. while his teammates were giving the presentation, haha, he had his hand up to his mouth or his arms crossed and stuff like he was nervous or disappointed, but, ah, alhamdulillah.
yeah, so, his cute habit is to put his hand up to his mouth when he’s seemingly nervous. i dunno, just my observation its so cute. sitting next to him was, i think, quite a thrill (no, i dont get out much). i was happy just being in his presence, it felt so natural, so, so right. i dunno. it was cute, we would whisper to each other and stuff. hehee, i thoroughly enjoyed it. that was one of the things that made my day. alrite, so, eventually, i think we sat through 3 or 4 more presentations and then the class was over. i had parked in the garage and so he decided to walk me to my car.
in the beginning and even before going to the university, i was worried. i was worried and kinda paranoid or freaked out about the fact that somebody we know would see us talking or walking together or whatever, but, you know, when i got there and we got out of that classroom and that building, i didnt even care. i just stopped noticing that people were watching or that, out of all the tens of thousands of muslims at the university, they would see one bro and sis together. i just didnt care. i guess thats what they call ‘living in the moment’. i was just happy that for one day, just one day, i could be normal with him, like i am with my friends or my sister is with her friends, and im thinking he felt the same. either way, it was a day to cherish. we lived in the moment, i overcame that fear, i decided that i would just enjoy his company. and i loved every second of it. though i was a bit nervous, it wore off as we walked through the parking lot, onto the street and into the garage building thing and all the way up to my car.
we got out of the building and he kept trying to open doors for me. haha, it was cute, not -
[we interrupt this special post for a phone call from my love]
- not successful each and everytime, but, you know, it was still cute during the call, we replayed the whole day and he has an amazing memory and eye for detail, masha’Allah. you never cease to amaze me, dear. so, haha, he opened the door for me, but i walked out of the other one. hehe, honest mistake! really. well, we walked through the parking lot and we talked about work for a bit, i think a little bit of cy and then bayyinah. then i commented on how tall he was, haha, and this was funny, because (and he said nobody really calls him tall) i guess it was pretty random, but really, we are, alhamdullilah, wonderfully formed, an amazingly perfect height difference, and i find that a sign in and of itself, alhamdullilah. oh, during the call, haha, he told me that he noticed my little jump into the chair that doesnt swing out the whole way…thing…yeah. im an idiot.
anyways, hehee, we walked along. it was sweltering hot outside, but you know what, i dont think i noticed, i was pretty absorbed in wanting to just take in the moment that couple minutes of walking felt like a long time, time well spent with the one i love. haha, im being pretty generous with that word right now, but ah, these slips of the tongue. so, we reached the sidewalk and i didnt want to jaywalk and we didnt decide where to cross, so basically, and this was quite funny, i wanted to turn onto the street, then i decided not to and got back on the sidewalk, and then i did want to turn and then i guess my hand brushed up against him and we kinda bumped into each other…hehe, then it got kinda awkward and i hoped he didnt notice. [and yet again, with his eye for detail, of course, he noticed. when we were on the phone earlier, i was gonna be like, i think i touched you earlier and im sorry about it, but i thought it sounded too beysharam, so i didnt, and then he said, ehm, i think we kinda bumped into each other...and then i apologized! and it's purely a subhanAllah moment when he says what im thinking and sometimes i just cant understand or believe it. alhamdullilah].
well, things were quiet and we jaywalked anyway, because the crosswalk was on the other side of the street and we didnt feel like going all the way and so we went in and i had to pay for my ticket. so, right when we walk into the garage building, i pull out my wallet to pay and i show him my school pride card, and im like, haha! and he was like, astaghfirullah, and i was like, how sad, but he was just kidding. hehee. so, and gah, i wish i could remember it like he does, but basically, i guess we were just talking and he asked me how much the ticket was and i was like, $700. haha, it was pretty funny, and he’s like, noooo. but yeah, hehee. OH YEAH!! ok, so i was commenting on his little habit of touching his mouth [he said he's touching his beard, so im gonna write that instead now]. so im just like, do you do that when you’re nervous and he said, on the phone, that no, he just does that now and he doesnt notice. but we were standing at the ticket payment thingy and im like, stop, dont do that, it looks like youre nervous, so he was like, fine. and he put his arms down. and im just like, nooooo, im just kidding. and he’s like, well, in that case, haha, and he started doing it again. so i payed my “$700″ ticket, which was really just $4 and we went on. so, here, he was like, hmm, its so hot and he took off his tie [and i forgot to ask him who tied it for him; i was thinking it was his mom, it was his dad tho] and we were talking about it. im like, why did you wear one, that you could be dressy without it and stuff, and he was just like, well, i didnt know if the others were going to, so yeah [he held it the rest of the way]. oh, and i gave his book back to him! anyways, we were looking for the stairs to get to the second floor and i didnt know where they were, but i said that out loud and this guy was like, what are yall looking for? and we asked him where the stairs were and he pointed out the way.
then we passed by this restaurant that he always goes to and he’s like, i should go in and buy you a lemonade, and im like, no, its alrite. haha, so we go up the stairs. theres a door to them, though, and i got there first and i opened it, and he’s like, aww. and im like, its ok, ill be the gentleman, and he was like, no it was in his nature, and im like, then why didnt you run toward the door and open it first? hehe, but yeah, so we go up. i wanted him to walk up first but i ended up walkin first. its ok though, i had my backpack. so, we finally get upstairs and we cant find my car so we’re just walking and talking and im wondering if it got towed or something, but alhamdullilah, haha, we were just dumb and couldnt find it. we spent a while walking around. we talked about his presentation and how his teacher was being an awesome teacher by pointing out the wrong things in the presentation because that’s his job and thats how he helps his students improve, and that’s what a good teacher does, make sure you dont mess up the next time around.
so, we walk around almost half the square of this garage still looking for my car and it doesnt have a beep-y thing so i cant beep it (his doesnt either) and he was like, why dont you call out to it and im like, i dont talk to my car. he told me a story about how he apologized to his car after running into it, hehee, i guess im just not used to talking to my car, though i do apologize to inanimate things if i hit them. so then, he took off his glasses and he’s like, here, this is how blind i am and he’s like, hold up some fingers, and i hold up 2, but he’s still standing close by, so he can see him. so he backs up a little and asks me to hold em up and he cant tell anymore, even though i held up the same number of fingers. haha, it was funny though, when he took them off, i was standing next to him and i could see his face up close without them. secretly though, i wanted to see a front view of his face, but i saw the side. [haha, later on on the phone, he was like, i took them off so you could try them on, then i thought it was too beysharam, and im like, hah! shock! but haha, oh well]. alhamdullilah.
yeah, so we see a prius and we’re headed towards it, its at the third corner, but see, i parked next to stairs and as we got closer, we saw that it was a white prius and it didnt have the sticker on it. so we turned the last corner, and lo and behold, the car was in front of us, we just had to walk forward some more and we reached the last stairs in the building. he saw the texas sticker and said something, but eh, whatewer. i then showed him where my dad had hit my car cuz i told him and he was like, yeah, that sucks. sigh, it was nearing the end. the end of our beautiful walk. yes, in the sweltering heat, yes, in the most random of places, but always memorable it shall be, insha’Allah. alhamdullilah, it was a good day. haha, so, we talked a bit, and to be polite, i asked if he wanted a ride to his car and he was like, no, that would be too awkward, and im like, yeah, youre right [and here, he claims that i blushed or covered my face or something, but i dont really recall!!] so yeah, it was coming to an end. haha, he said assalamu alaikum, and then i said wa alaikum assalam wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuhu! and he was like, aw, you win. and he was gonna head down the stairs, and he was like, wait, you just lost the game, and im like, ah!! but haha, yeah, then we finally parted, each of us regretting that we didnt spend more time on our walk together.
alhamdullilah, we had at least that much of that amazingly all natural feeling, that belonging, that sense of completion that one feels only when they find that one person that they can love with all of their hearts. subhanAllah wal hamdullilah wa la ilaaha illa Allah waAllhu akbar wa la hawla wa la quwatta illa Billah. today was an amazing day. and to top it, transformers 2, texts and a phone call from him. im still trying to think of a nickname, we’re trying to get one that’s interrelated to my sn, but, ah, we’re still working on it. i might just call him babe like i normally do in my mind. oh well, we’ll see.
we hope tomorrow will go alrite. its time for some made dua. insha’Allah. ya Allah, forgive us, guide us, protect us, and allow us to actually become an us, allow us to get married as soon as possible, in your name, ya Allah. ameen.
