:) oh happy day

oh happy day, yay. we had a date. again, i shall write about it when i get back to atown insha’Allah. yay

school

yay, school. whoo. fun fun fun. tests. grades. teaching? meh. theyre coming over for dinner tomorrow. yay. but we want to go out first.

Engaged!

alhamdullilah! even though i dont believe very much in engagements, its still nice to have this feeling in the air. so, we had our little mungnee party, k, well, i guess it wasnt so little though. hehe, it was fun and afterwards we went to the cheesecake factory and starbucks and stuff with my sis, her hubby, and my big bro. it was amazing. alhamdullilah, an awesome night!

today i went to dinner at their house. it was cool, too. i hung out with his cousins and we played mafia. haha, yelled, not played. oh well

:)

Eid Sa’eed! Taqabbal Allah minna wa minkum Eid mubarak!

yum. food. fun!

It’s Coming, but Ramadan’s Going

lol, so, i was talking to his mom today, and i  noticed that the engagement party is 2 weeks from friday. 2 weeks. holy…dang. masha’Allah, alhamdullilah. but you know what, im sad that ramadan’s ending, i mean, for me, it didnt really feel like it was even here. i guess it was my lack of, i guess an islamic environment. i mean, its always been, well, in school, the muslims, there, the teachers, the shuyookh, the general spirit of a community with aunties and uncles and little kids. here, i guess there’s really none of that, i mean, there are, but not here, not with us, not at the masjid with us. and i guess its because theyre all people that i dont exactly know. i dont know if i would be comfortable even reading Qur’an in front of them. i guess its on me too, i didnt really try to create the islamic atmosphere for myself. i know i didnt try as much as i would have liked. it could’ve been better. insha’Allah i live to see the next ramadan, so that i can make better use of it. Allahummaghfir lana dhunoobana, ameen.

Engagement Craze

so, i think im beginning to worry. not only do i think that my engagement party may be bigger than my sister’s nikkah, but its going to be completely desi. it sealed the deal when she said i was going to wear a teeka. dude. what the freaking heck. like, wow. so, it first went from a small immediate family party at my house to a huge thing at a restaurant hall. and the rents actually found out today when his mom said it yesterday. and his dad doesnt talk. so, apparently the clothes from paki wont get here on time, but its ok, she bought cloth from here and is getting it tailored. and i get choori, a hijab/dupatta and a teeka. yes, a dangly forehead ornament that im accustomed to BRIDE’S wearing. haha, and the funny thing is, i dont really believe in engagements. la hawla wa la quwatta illa Billah. you know what, we should just get nikkah’d, too. right now.

yeah, insha’Allah, itll be alright. i know the large hall thing might be a good idea, i mean, his family wants to meet me and its a huge family. but, what exactly are we going to do, theres no ceremony, no process. and we cant even have it on a saturday, it has to be on a friday because saturday’s apparently booked. which means i have to skip class on friday for a second time this month. i cant keep doing this. dude. this is crazy. yes, crazy, i dunno how long i can hold out. ya Allah, please make this easy.

so, basically, auntie is planning all of this, apparently he is no longer in the loop, i had to tell him the place, or i updated him about the place. stepmom didnt know. dad didnt know. his dad didnt say anything, thank God i was listening yesterday, then, alhamdullilah. but still, shes planning all of this and it might get out of control and teta is bringing me a dress and theres gonna be emotions running high and i dunno if ill be able to deal with this all. God. help, please? please make this easy and please put my heart at peace. the clothes and the place and the people and everything, it all seems a bit much for me; its just an engagement, a word of mouth agreement that we will, insha’Allah be married in the distant future, theres no party-like significance that goes with it.

the thing im wondering is, does she think i dont know what im doing so is she wholly taking the steering wheel and driving us all someplace because she thinks i dont know what to do? in truth, i may not know what to do because of the difference of custom, but, i am but a simple woman, with a slight dislike for parties (especially of those of which i am the center of attention). sigh. wow. it seems a bit much. a lot to take in.

ya Allah, please put our hearts at ease and peace, and help us cope with the times that may come. ameen

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Apartment!!

yayyyy alhamdullilah! moved in yesterday and im loving the apartment! 2 roomies came in today and one yesterday after i moved in! we went shopping at walmart and and today we went to the outlet mall and i got jeaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnsss!! and then we looked at some pumas but i still havent bought any shoes yet. so yes, i like my bathroom the best, better than my room because its pretty. i need to upload the pics yay. gahh, i miss him a lot when im here but i think we’re starting to call each other more often.

fasting’s kinda hard, but not really when im not doing anything. tomorrow will be a real test insha’Allah itll be ok. im gonna be on campus for quite a bit. geh. dang, im worried about physics on wednesday, who’s gonna be in class with me. geh. kinda wish i had that ring. LOL! yesterday, we went to the masjid but they didnt have iftar. and then we went to an arabic place to have dinner. and then i bumped into this dude. my butt hit his elbow or something. i dunno. it was just funny. then he apologized profusely. then later he talked about all this food and stuff. it was funny. ah well. i think he was trying too hard. oh vell. lol i cant wait until the engagement!! eeeehhh!!

insha’Allah, itll be soon, and the nikkah soon after alhamdullilah. All praise is due to Allah! ya Allah, please make this easy on us. make this ramadan a time to get closer to you and a time to strengthen our iman. please make this year easy on us, ya Allah, and make our studies easy, ameen!

ah, yes, one last thing: today was mom’s birthday Allahummaghfir laha warhamha, ameen!

The World

haha, the world knows. wow, its freakin crazy. yeah, so all of htown knows, atown, etc. wow. gotta tell bro! gahhhh!! but wow, subhanAllah. today was definitely the day

i think aate and her significant other are kind of angry. i have yet to talk to her. oh well. insha’Allah itll be ok. soo many people to visit. la hawla wa la quwatta illah Billah may Allah make this easy for us, ameen!

They Came, They Saw…

…they left. (haha, jk)

no, really, it was a bit more eventful. they came, sat down for a bit, ate dinner, then we talked. and here was right about the time when i discovered that i cant carry on a decent conversation for the life of me. anyways, im trying to get over that still. alhamdullilah, i guess she likes me well enough. see, the problem is, i wasnt satisfied enough with myself or my…performance, for lack of a better word. i think that i could have tried harder to have a nice, flowy conversation, but i didnt, i decided to sit there in silence. cuz i suck. see, thats one thing i dont like, and i hope she didnt find it too awkward. alhamdullilah, my stepmom handled things really well, i was happy about that. she and her would make good friends, i hope. it was nice to see them bonding. it was much better than my sister’s lil episode. alhamdullilah. but yeah, basically, after all the formalities, we’re just two families trying to become one, i guess. alhamdullilah.

things’ll really start to move after ramadan’s over. i think we’ll have an engagement/nikkah (no clue) after ramadan. im waiting for the rents to set the date so i can arrange when to come back down alhamdullilah. yayyy, that makes me happy. just 5 weeks alhamdullilah, Allahu akbar! hmm, i think we’ll be visiting their house soon. haha, oh yeah, his little brother came, they had to explain to him what was going on in the car.

ahhhh!! yeah, my lil bro went up to him and hugged him before they left. i mean, he just opened his arms, and my baby bro just went to him. no fair, he doesnt even do that with me! bleh, its ok, alhamdullilah. anyways, he looked really nice tonight, i liked his outfit a lot. masha’Allah. and stepmom thinks he so handsome, handsome. alhamdullilah (lol, and so do i)

i guess things did go better than i view them, alhamdullilah, i just didnt want to make a yucky impression. i guess im just a person of few words, and that’s ok. alhamdullilah. all praise is due to Allah, Lord of the worlds. may He make this time easy on all of us, ameen.